When I’m awake. When I’m asleep. -Brandi Carlile.
Her Dream song has been in my head for a week now.
I looked on my iTunes to see how many songs I have in my library that are about dreams. 22 songs are about dreams.
Since I have a hard time sleeping like I used to, my dreams are somewhat limited to when I am awake. But, boy, do I have dreams.
I find it fascinating that we have been given a mind to dream. When asleep, we can live a whole different life than our reality. That may be a bad or good thing. Calgon, take me away. But awake, we are given a gift of hope and dreams and if we have faith, we can sometimes see it become a reality to enjoy.
I haven’t always had faith. That doesn’t mean that I did not progress or get things done. I did. But when I didn’t have faith or belief that my God was interested in teaming with me in my hopes and dreams, it was more like an existence. Moving through the motions. A complacency. A settling for a status quo. A I’m-not-going-to take-risks and leaps-to grow attitude.
Ladders have found themselves in many of my paintings. At one point in a state of depression, I decided that my ladders indicated descension. Sinking. But the greater my faith grew, the more I realized that my ladders symbolized ascension. Reaching above my capacity to receive and then to achieve my dreams and hopes. I came to the realization that in order to grasp my dreams I needed help from above. Once I realized that, man oh man, my dreams and hopes came alive.
I be climbing ladders all day. I get a dream in my head. Sometimes they are pretty big dreams. Like this here farm. I run up the ladder.
Talk to God about my dream. He asks, “What does this have to do with Me? How will this expand your love for Me? What are your true motives? How will this help others grow to love Me?” I answer Him as I think I know the answer or I say “Hmmmm, I don’t know” and run back down my ladder. I have found that if my will is in line with His will, and I am willing to go the extra mile to make them come true, there is no other feeling like it. Explosion of joy.
I think that is the difference between before when I didn’t have faith and after. Before, I would have a dream, make it happen and it was checked off my list. It didn’t bring that explosion of joy that impregnates all aspects of my life. That continues to feed and breathe. Yep.
Once I get permission from above, which is the biggest detail, I set out to get ‘er done. I can see the dream a reality in my head. It then becomes a matter of patience, patience, patience. Reaching for the stars takes time, calculated effort and a fierce drive. Lots of dialogue with my team partners. And because God is on the team He will move mountains to make it happen. It truly is a wonderful collaboration. I am forever grateful to have invited Him to be on my team and that He is my biggest supporter.
Dreams. ………I have dreams.