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Jesus Christ is Risen Today….

…..at our farm.

Some of you may know that Pops and I have felt that along with this here farm came a responsibility to glorify God.  We felt it when we bought the property and have taken it very seriously.  We want to share this property with others, that they may also come and be in nature and use the land for renewal, refreshment and relaxation.  Our idea is to provide others with a place to retreat whether it be a formal, facilitated retreat, a meeting place for the good of others, or simply a place for families and friends to gather to renew their spirit with each other.

Phase I  was to get us here and up and running.  We have done that.  Phase II  is under way and thankfully is a whole lot less back-breaking….. but emotionally?  The most exciting.  When we bought the property we chose (or I think rather, He chose) a spot for our outdoor chapel.  A place where one can go and pray.  Lay down their sorrows.  Lift up their thanks.  And praise His Holy Name.  The chapel will consist of a crucifix and a stone wall that you can belly up to and pray.

We began last year by making a clay model of the corpus and cut wood from our beloved front yard trees that died.

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I took the model up to Indianapolis this Spring to have it cast in bronze at a foundry who work with artists.  Was a totally cool place.   Almost made me want to change mediums.

This week we put it all together and to the chapel area it went.   The thought of having a place to worship on our property tickles me to no end.  Maybe I can take my cot up there and have a sleep over.

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We packed our tools into our gator when through and turned around to see this stunning sight.

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The light at the base of the tree BLEW our mind.  Thank you, God, for accepting our invitation.  Pops and I were dumbstruck.

Phase III is a cabin for da people.  God will provide when He thinks we are ready to handle it.  My heart has been feeling a tickly sensation in the past few weeks.  I wonder if it means we are ready.  Or maybe He was readying me for today’s miracle.

God bless,

Karen

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Empty Wagons Rattle The Loudest

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What?

A friend quoted this old saying on Facebook a few days ago.   I have never heard this before and for some unknown reason I couldn’t let it go. It struck a chord in my pea brain .  When things rattle for a while in my head, there is usually a reason.   

I looked it up and some of the definitions for this witty saying are:

The least intelligent of us are the loudest.  

One who uses many words to make up for the lack of substance.  

I even  came across the quote:   “A loaded wagon makes no noise.”      It is to mean people with real money don’t talk about it.  Huh?

Who makes this stuff up?

I didn’t grow up in a family that used witty old-time sayings.  I’m a little dim in this department.  But they are fun.  Especially if we can make up our own definitions.

Before I had a chance to look up the meaning,  I had made my own mind up.

Perspective is everything, isn’t it?  Experience is everything, isn’t it?  And really, what is reality?  Is it a concrete thing?  My reality surely isn’t the same as yours.  Sometimes I even question whether my siblings grew up in the same house as I did.   Their reality is not the same as mine.  Mine is not the same as theirs.

Oops.  Sorry.  Getting off track.  Get back on the wagon, girl.

My interpretation comes from my experience.  For much of my life my heart  felt empty.   And since I am very symbolic and use symbols in my art a lot, I saw an empty wagon as an empty heart.   In my art,  I use  boats and vessels to represent people.  They speak holders of our souls.  Wagons …not too different than boats and vessels.

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Okay……So I got my empty wagon.

Rattle the loudest.  Have you ever seen a child (of course,  you have) that makes a lot of racket because he isn’t getting attention?  A child that has been abused or neglected or has a sad heart that is rebellious in order to make himself  be heard?  The class clown in school desperate for attention?  The guy with the lamp shade on his head?

And to the other extreme, the people who lash out hurting and/or killing people?  Their cage is rattled, so they need to rattle everyone else’s cage.

Or an adult that doesn’t know how to express the wounds they feel  or dont know how to go  about healing those wounds so  it is manifested through loud, rattling anger?

It wasn’t too far in the distant past that I felt like I was an “empty wagon rattling the loudest”.  My heart hurt and I wanted people to know it.  I wanted ME to know it.  But I didn’t know how.   There was no peace in that wagon.  It’s like a baby crying for her bottle and can’t ask kindly because she doesn’t know how to speak.  So it all comes out ugly and creaky.  And cranky.

How do we heal from our wounds so that we can fill our empty wagons with a calm and peace?  For me?  I had to  admit to myself that I hurt and ask God to help me heal.  He is very clever.  He uses many people in my world to help in that process.  I just have to be open  and accepting of  that help  and be willing to do what I am told.

At all costs.

Prayer.  Prayer and more prayer.   It is a miraculous journey to see the hurts dissolve and be replaced with strength, hope and joy.  I think for many, many years I was not even cognizant that my wagon was empty.  But the clanking in my ear grew stronger and stronger.  It could not be ignored any longer.

My wagon aint full everyday, let me tell you. There is some clankin’ around here and there.   But it hasn’t been buck empty for a long time now.   It gets easier to  notice when I am rattling louder and louder and I load up the wagon with soft fluffy pillows.  It is work, but anything worth doing is work, right?

I think I like that old saying,

Empty wagons rattle the loudest.

God bless,

Karen

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Wedding Bell Blues?

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I can only blog from my perspective and this girl has been in a state of trauma this past week.  They say there is always a “let down”  for all involved in the planning of a wedding.  I can say my let down began when we exited the church last Saturday to a down pour of 3 inches of rain in an hour.  I know you’ve all been there.  You’ve planned an event and had a vision of how it would play out.  I had visions of Lori’s cookies and fancy cupcakes dancing in my head.  Moonlight dancing under the beautiful lighted canopy constructed from saplings  by our son’s now father-in-law.  Etceteraaaa.  Etceteraaaa.  You name it.  We had it figured out.

SOO many beautiful flowers put together very thoughtfully by sisters.

SOO many beautiful flowers put together very thoughtfully by sisters.

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The ceremony was spectacular. I felt a peace and calm from the whole congregation.  I could have sat there the entire day.  THEN…….

We arrived at our house where the reception was to be held.

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It wasn’t a bad deal if you didn’t mind swimming with moles, voles, snakes and near extinct turtles.

Oh, and adding the wet/dry vac activity to the agenda  so  all the people could suck  the water and mud out of their cars.

Every vision and plan was thrown by the wayside in a matter of 30 minutes.   In my head, I just wanted to go to bed and hide from what my eyes were looking at.

The great thing was that I didn’t meet a person all  day that did not have a great sense of humor and many thought it only added to the festive atmosphere.  “Really?”  I kept saying.  One gal came up and said, “I LOVE rain at weddings.  It means that God is washing over the couple with many blessings!”  That quote was my life-preserver that day.  No pun intended.

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The bride and groom, along with all of their friends, had a ball.  I think they were a little dumbstruck, as we were,  but I think age was on their side considering it has taken me a week to stop staring out the window paralyzed.

I had to bat myself on the head midweek finally.   I was so fixated on all the wasn’t and should have been.   What about the mountain of blessings that took place?  What about the killer ceremony that took place that united my son to Emily forever.  They are now one.  What about the fact that Eric and Emily’s faith in God is growing?  What about the weekend of huge fun (and challenge) with our new in-laws that are just awesome?  They came three days early and worked their tails off with us and stayed three days after and worked their tails off.   What about all the people who were here that obviously care so much for us?  What about all the people, many of whom I do not know, that pitched in and helped out when they saw we so desperately needed their help that day?  That blew my mind.

I was working in my studio yesterday when I felt God speak to me.  I love when that happens.  Sometimes it is clear and wonderful.  (wonderful doesn’t mean warm and cozy.  Many times it is “oh no” wonderful.  It’s wonderful cuz I actually hear  when He is speaking)  He said, “What makes you think that what you had planned was what was supposed to happen? What makes you think it was the right thing?”  Ouch.  But, you know what?  It was a relief to hear that.  Took the pressure off.     So I said back, ” Yeah.  What made me think?  Forgit that, man.”


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God bless,

Karen

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Dreams. I Have Dreams……

When I’m awake.  When I’m asleep.  -Brandi Carlile.

Her Dream song has been in my head for a week now.

I looked on my iTunes to see how many songs I have in my library that are about dreams.  22 songs are about dreams.

Since I have a hard time sleeping like I used to,  my dreams are somewhat limited to when I am awake.  But, boy, do I have dreams.

I find it fascinating that we have been given a mind to dream. When asleep, we can live a whole different life than our reality. That may be a bad or good thing.  Calgon, take me away.   But awake,  we are given a gift of hope and dreams and if we have faith,  we can sometimes see it become a reality to enjoy.

I haven’t always had faith.  That doesn’t mean that I did not progress or get things done.  I did.   But when I didn’t have faith or belief that my God was interested in teaming with me in my hopes and dreams, it was more like an existence.  Moving through the motions.  A complacency.   A settling for a status quo.  A I’m-not-going-to take-risks and leaps-to grow attitude.

My motto is “If there is a will, there is a way”.  It always has been.  Physically, I have been able to accomplish most of what I set my mind to.  But in the past 15 years it has been vastly different.  DSCN0170

Ladders have found themselves in many of my paintings.  At one point in a state of depression, I decided that my ladders indicated descension.  Sinking.  But the greater my faith grew, the more I realized that my ladders symbolized ascension.  Reaching above my capacity to receive and then to achieve my dreams and hopes.  I came to the realization that in order to grasp my dreams I needed help from above.  Once I realized that, man oh man, my dreams and hopes came alive.

I be climbing ladders all day.   I get a dream in my head.  Sometimes they are pretty big dreams.  Like this here farm.  I run up the ladder.

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Talk to God about my dream.  He asks, “What does this have to do with Me?  How will this expand your love for Me?   What are your true motives? How will this help others grow to love Me?”   I answer Him as I think I know the answer or I say “Hmmmm, I don’t know” and run back down my ladder.    I have found that if  my will is in line with His will, and I am willing to go the extra mile to make them come true, there is no other feeling like it.  Explosion of joy.

I think that is the difference between before when I didn’t have  faith and after.  Before, I would have a dream, make it happen and it was checked off my list.  It didn’t bring that explosion of joy that impregnates all aspects of my life.   That continues to feed and breathe.  Yep.

Once I get  permission from above, which is the biggest detail, I set out to get ‘er done.   I can see the dream a reality in my head.  It then becomes a matter of patience, patience, patience.   Reaching for the stars takes time, calculated effort and  a fierce drive.  Lots of dialogue with my team partners.   And because God is on the team He will move mountains to make it happen.  It truly is a wonderful collaboration.  I am forever grateful to have invited Him to be on my team and that He is my biggest  supporter.

Dreams. ………I have dreams.

God bless,

Karen

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Homegrown

The sun comes up
in the morning,
Shines that light around.
One day, without no warning,
Things start jumping up
from the ground.

Well, homegrown’s
all right with me.

 – Neil Young

Ain’t that the truth.

Last year at this time, while I was delivering little kid goats,  the weather in the midwest was atrocious.   As early as mid June, I remember walking the animals at dawn and there was not a drop of dew on the ground.  That has never happened.   The dirt was fine like sand.  It felt “deserty”.   That scared me.  I had to ask -What is the worst that can happen?  We live in a desert?  All the plant species that have surrounded us forever die?  Our critters choke to death of thirst?  Scorpians and other desert creatures come to roost?

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  People from Phoenix will venture east?  Weather changes for some reason scare me.  When a season doesn’t behave the way it should, I get this oh-no-the-world-is-going-to-end  sensation in my heart.

But this season?  Has been fantastic in my estimation.  Cool.  Rain.  Sun.  Not too hot too early.   Everything is growing like gangbusters and we have been able to enjoy lettuce, spinach and asparagus in abundance.   There have been a few plates served up with homegrown beef or chicken, salad and asparagus so far this season.  We have never felt that accomplishment before.  It feels great to put dinner on the table without having to go to the grocery store.  That is probably the best part of the whole deal.

Livin’ out he’a in the country we don’t feel much like driving in everyday to do the shoppin’.  Just like anything else, I usually do have to jump into town daily for one thing or another though.

This homegrown thing obviously is a first for us.  Our efforts the past five years is paying off finaaalllly.   We will continue to plow through with the unknown and have fun.

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If you have ever homegrowed  your own food,  you know the feeling.  It feels good.

I have had a few snake sitings so far.

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This is a tiny one and the other two were not so much.  I saw  a black one that was about 5 feet.  And last night, I was walking Francis around the perimeter of her pasture and I saw another blacky that was about 2-3 foot.   I walk her twice ’round and this was my first pass.   I got the courage to go around again, ONLY because I had my big boots on.   She was still there so I snuck up on her to get a better look and she slithered away into an invisible hole.  Is that why they are so creepy?  They can just disappear.  LIke that.

God is good.  For sure.

Our wedding is in 2 weeks.  Talk about homegrown.  We are down to getting final numbers and compiling the mile long list of things that needs to be down last minute.  We have lots of good helpers so I am not fretting.  Too much.  That is another reason God is so good.  He put these two lovely people together and will make them one.  That is a miracle, baby.  That is a miracle.    They are perfectly yoked.  I am grateful for that.

I am not sure my posts have been showing up on Facebook for some reason.  I have not jumped shipped as some of you may think.  The posts are there, they just aren’t showing up on the social media stuff like I asked.  What is wrong wit them?

God bless,

Karen

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This And That Thoughts and Autoimmunity.

A couple of things before getting to Part II of Autoimmunity  8 natural treatments.

I have heard two things that keep resonating with me in the after math of the Boston Marathon tragedy.

1. Quote from awesome author, Ann Voskamp, “..life on this side of the race is hard right to the finish.”

Gosh, the bombing was quite a literal display of this quote.  We live life the best we know how and no matter, no matter, it is hard til the dying day.   Very difficult.  I choose to look at all the trials I come up against as a preparation and testing, if you will, for my life everlasting.  Otherwise, the life can be too daunting and overwhelming.  And I would really be questioning its purpose.

2.  I have to paraphrase this next one from our pastor at church this past week since it was not a written word.  Our country has become a “culture of death”.  We make it legal for mothers to kill their children( at the mind-boggling rate of  3500 a day), yet we are astounded, angered, violated, etc when someone chooses an action that inflicts pain and death on innocent  people of this country.  Could that be a tad  hypocritical?  How can we expect things to change when we have legalized murder in the country?

Woah.  When  you put it that way…. What would it look like if this country  lined up 3500 innocent folks a day and did away with them?   The country would probably look like deep pain and heartbreak.  And in many, many cases, despair.  Hmmm.  That has an eerily resemblance of what I see in the news.   Excruciating, isn’t it?

Ok,  back to task at hand….

Autoimmunity is closely related to chronic illness.  When we have an autoimmune disease we will suffer chronically in one way or another.

Feeling healthy is the key right?

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1. Check for hidden infections with the help of a doctor.   But don’t just rely on medicine if you want to get to root of cause.  Lifestyle changes have HUGE impact on wellness.

2. Check for hidden food allergens.  Food selection can be the solution.  Try the “Elimination Diet” where your body can be the judge.  And remove chemicals and processed foods from your diet. Research the GAPS diet and/or the Paleo diet.   

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3.  Get tested for Celiac Disease.

4. Get tested for heavy metal toxicity.  

5. Use nutrients such as Fish or Cod liver oil, vitamin C, vitamin D and Probiotics to help calm your immune response naturally.  
6. Exercise regularly.  It is a natural anti-inflammatory.  
7. Practice deep relaxation like deep breathing, yoga, massage and longer, restful sleep periods.  Stress worsens the immune response.
8.  Do not accept one solution or opinion.  Seek out professional help who use other methods for healing.  They are becoming much more common.  
9.  Get guided through a thorough detox against parasitic condition or yeast overgrowth attacking your system and greatly compromising your immune system. 
Implementing all of these measures together will most certainly get you to the bottom of the cause and have you on your way to recovery in lickety split.
God bless,
Karen

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Woosh. Geez. On To Brighter Things.

We are off on a journey through Spring.   23 degrees two days ago.  Yeah.  Well.  Today will be 58.

All the angels in the wild are scratching their little eyeballs open and stretchin’  their little wings.   Little voices clearing their throats.

It is obvious our animals feel the same way as the cows from the above farm.

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Jumpin’ and rearing’ and carryin’ on.

The bluebirds are back  and we have three nests out of  the seven houses hung.  So far.  It is jar dropping to see them in flight.  Beautiful color of lapis fluttering through the air.     I don’t know if I wasn’t in tune all the years we lived in the burbs, but I don’t recall seeing one bluebird until we moved here.

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What is really concerning at this point are the skinny looooonnnngggg critters that are poking their skinny little heads out of the ground right now,  yawning their little fangy mouths.    Animal chores begin before daylight and end after dark.  I am walking trails and pastures many times in the….eeek….hours that those cuties are coming out to play.   In the winter?  Not a problem.  I can kick around as I please and chances are  I will not be running into anything moving.  But times are a changin’.   Maybe if I dress in a full on rubber suit.

I hope this man is still with the living.

I hope this man is still with the living.

Are you ready for what Spring brings?  Activity.   I’m not so sure yet.  Maybe my winter wasn’t quiet or long enough.  I take hibernation quite seriously.  Given the fact that we are hosting my son’s wedding in June, we are not bringing in any new animals for a while or beginning any large “projects”.   I can’t  get my head around walking even to the garden yet.    I don’t know exactly how daunting the wedding is/will be, so I have moved into a slow motion period.   In preparation for what, I’m not sure yet.

Sometimes when I see big things/events looming ahead, I get sorta paralyzed prior to.  Does that ever happen to you?  I don’t know if it is a mental rest and preparation or that I can’t accept it yet.  But then, there is an exact moment of ……GO….   and then we’re off and running.  Maybe it is a preservation  or storing up of energy.

It kinda (and that is a BIG kinda) reminds me of the very last scene, maybe the very last still in The Passion by Mel Gibson where Jesus sees the daylight from the tomb. He sits there very very still with His eyes closed.  Knowing that when He opens them and takes His first step,  it’s a GO.  He is off.  And there is no turning back.   Dive in head first.  BIG job ahead.  Holy cow, I would love to be with  Him.

Anywhoooo,  That is where I am at with springing into Spring.  I am with closed eyes.  I know that as I open them and take my first step, there is no turning back.  It is full-bore ahead.   Ready, set…..stop.  Not ready.

God bless,

Karen

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What Are Your Love Requirements?

While in the hospital with Grandma Jo this past week, we had an opportunity to talk about A LOT.   All awhile, she lay there sleeping peacefully.   She always  loved us gathered.    You will agree that times like these bring people together in the most intimate way.

One day we discussed the five love languages.   The author, Gary Chapman,  writes about them in one of his books.   It really helps me understand the needs of my loved ones.  AND  my needs.   The needs of my loved ones aren’t necessarily the needs of my own.  That was a certain revelation.

FIVE LOVE LANGUAGES

DO YOU FEEL THE MOST LOVED WHEN:

1.  You are verbally affirmed?  For example:  I love you.  Or .. You look beautiful today.

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2.  You are physically touched affectionately?

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3.  When people do nice things for you?

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4.  You are with the people who you love?

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5. When you receive/give gifts?

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One of these languages typically touch us more than the rest.   What I need to remember is that just because one language is not important to me and doesn’t make me feel one way or another, it may be the most important language in the life of a loved one.  If receiving gifts is not a big deal on my list it may be on yours.  I need to be conscious of that.    Or  while hearing “I love you” ten times a day  isn’t necessary for you to feel secure,   a huge hug daily might be just what the doctor ordered.

Being conscious of others language, be sure to let your people know what your language is too.   You are as important as the next guy.

Ya think the world’s problems will be solved then?

In the last week, we have seen an outpouring of  love with the passing of our Mom, Grandma, Mother-in-law.   All five love languages were brought to the table.  It was incredible.

God bless,

Karen

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Heaven Just Got Brighter

Life has been strange,  hectic, and sad.  Last night we lost Pops mother after a very short battle with lung cancer.   It really cannot be called a battle with lung cancer.  The battle was  chemo.  Her fragile body couldn’t handle the chemo.   Stage 1 cancer.  2nd round of chemo.  Gone.

Life is strange.  Lovely.  Scary.

Jo was the most kind, gracious, loving person that ever touched my children’s lives.     Love just flowed.   Effortlessly.   One of my sons said, “No matter what I did or could do, I could never love her as much as she loved me. ”

Unconditional.

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I will be back in touch when we rise to the surface.

In the meantime,

God bless,

Karen

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What? Viva il Papa?

The Pope lives.  Ok.  The Pope lives.

What does that mean for us Catholics and really for the rest of the world.

Pops and I have talked a little bit, not too much,  about the  coming of the new pope.  We both were in agreement that it would be really great to see a pope from a different part of the world.  A part where  the passion for Catholicism might be greater?  A new perspective?  I have observed the Latin Americans and their devotion to their church and their Holy Mother, Jesus and the whole ball of wax.  I admit I have been envious at times of their sheer love and loyalty to the Holy Family.   I want to weezle my way in to the very core of it.   Eye to eye with our Holy Father.

So, we are grateful for their decision.  It brings hope in my heart that huge healing can take place not just among the Catholics who feel hurt and betrayal but also the  population of our world.  Any shift in the atmosphere can bring hope, cant it?  If we somehow can pry ourselves from the glue that keeps us stuck to the chair of negativity and cynicism?  From what I have heard in the short 24 hours since I have even heard of this man from Argentina, I am elated, and again, hopeful.   He appears to be a man of humility and a down to earth man who actually lives among the “little” people.  Took the bus to work everyday from his little apartment until just recently when he traveled to Italy to become the pope.  I think he was referred to something like the ” Cardinal on wheels” because people could always find him on the city bus where they could converse.   This morning he traveled to his hotel to pack his little bag by himself (well, as best  he can now) and paid his hotel bill himself with his own money.  This speaks to me.

BUT I couldn’t have been more pleased that he chose the name Francis for his title.  Let me see, do we like Francis of Assisi?

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I received this statue  from my aunt’s possessions who passed away this past year.

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We have a lovely St. Francis sculpture adorning our living space that brings me great pleasure.  Just a peaceful dude.

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St. Francis stands guard at our massive beech tree in the  woods.  In his life he had a huge sprawling beech tree where he frequently went for silent prayer.   And from what I hear that tree still stands in Italy.

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IMG_3391 Our two-year old Great Pyr’s name is Clare for St. Clare of Assisi, who worked alongside St. Francis.

Pops and I have recited the St. Francis Prayer every night before closing our eyes for the last 6 or 7 years.  (see below)

Yeah.  We hold him in great esteem.  Why?

For us, he is a man of great love for the littleness of people and creatures of our world.   When I think of that man I see he is  the epitome of humility, gentleness and humanness.   I imagine he took great care that love was spread and felt by all.  Not just the haves.  But most importantly, the have nots.   I imagine he was much like Jesus in that way.  He took great care to love animals and I think he saw God in each and every creature.  We would like to be like him.   He’s a great role model.

Pope Francis, given his choice to live life in Argentina among the littlest of people, must hold some similar values in his pocket.   I rejoice in that.

If he can bring healing and love as the leader of the  Catholic church, then I believe  that can resonate through our world.  We are a hurting world,  both inside and outside the church.   All we want is love.  We want to feel  and be loved.

Now I must  run outside and tell my little Francis and Clare the good news.  They have a pope named after them.

ST. FRANCIS PRAYER

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,

Where there is hatred, let me sow love,

Where there is injury, pardon.

Where there is doubt, faith.

Wehr there is despair, hope.

Where there is darkness, light.

Where there is sadness, joy.

O divine Master,  grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console, to be understood as to understand, to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive.  It is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.  Amen. 

God bless,

Karen

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