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Ya Wanna Help Me Get Ready For A Partay?

What do you think about when it is time to prepare for a party?  Lists. Lists. And more lists, where I am concerned.  The bigger the party, the more daunting.  Don’t you wish we could enjoy that process as much as we are supposed to enjoy the actual “partay”?  It is just plain hard work.    We have to take time out of our already busy schedules to get ‘er done.  It ain’t easy.  But what is?

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The day that  I was born, I don’t remember hearing, or any other day for that matter,  that life is easy.  Have you?  Has there ever been a time when your parents, teachers, siblings, etc said to you, “Sit back and relax, Sugar, for you are on a journey of  cinch. ” Piece of cake.  A breeze.

Why, then, is it so punishing for us to get our arms wrapped around life when it gets difficult? Which,  for me,  is every day.

I’m guessing 99 percent of our resentments stem from life not throwing us the easy life line that we desperately deserve.  (I just looked up “easy” in the thesaurus and it gave me “sluttish”   Oh my goodness.  Is that a word in our Webster?)

Could this life be a preparation for something else to come?  Really.  When you think about it, what are we doing all this for?  Look at the steps we take in planning a party.  It’s like a miniature look at our bigger picture life.  Getting supplies.  Making lists.  Working with others to get ‘er done.  Cleaning.   Communicating.   Teaching each other what we know so that we can be on the same page.  Ultimately,  it is an effort to get to a place where we can enjoy each other’s company.  Like when we get home from work at the end of a long day.

Tomorrow, Lent begins.  Lent is a time for the preparation of  what?  For Christians, it is a time to walk through 40 days with Christ as He prepares to die for our sins three days before Easter.   It is a time for us to see that life IS NOT easy,  as He so plainly shows us and that sacrifices are made.     So how do we move through that walk with Him?  We are asked to give up something that we enjoy so that we may feel, somehow, empathy for what He did.   Not sure if by me not eating candy, I will get a sense of His torture on the cross.   But, in our own little way, we want to suffer with Him.   I am here to tell you, it is HARD to give up something you love.

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Also, we are encouraged to pray with Him.  That is a sacrifice of time.  It is HARD to give that time.  We are also encouraged to give to charity.  It is HARD to give up that money that could otherwise be spent on moi.  It’s not easy.

Oh, but who told me it was easy?  I keep trying to track that source down.   I want want want easy.  The only thing that is really easy in my life is when I get to take a nap.   I asked Pops last year, what would he do on a Saturday afternoon if he could do whatever he wanted.  He said play golf.   My response was, “Have fun.  Cause I’m taking a nap.”  Number 1 thing on my easy list.

Lent is  like a preparation for a party.  The party being the risen Christ who died for our sins.  Thank God.  I would hate to have to account for all of my ghastly sins.  ugh.

Life is like a preparation for a party.  The party being the day that I get to go live with my Savior who partied with me every Easter of my life.   Every day of my life for that matter.

I would hate to spend my life preparing for a party that never happens.  Let me get the hard stuff done so I can get on with it.

God bless,

Karen

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Fear Gripping Snakes Alive

Fear.

Yesterday I saw a snake that was the length of 1/2 the width of my driveway.   So I guess, 4 feet.  5 feet?  It actually is the longest snake I have seen on the property.  The Copperhead I killed a couple of years ago may have been that long but I only saw the length of what was leftover from my mower.

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I am afraid of snakes.

But with prayer, I am overcoming that fear little by little.  Actually baby steps.  We were in a car, thank goodness, and we were driving down to the lower pasture.  On the way back up I asked my precious friend to drop me off at the bottom of my drive so that I could walk back up to more or less face the fear.  Otherwise, I would simply want to avoid that area because that snake would forever be sitting there.  Wrong.    Believe me, I said a prayer on the way up that Mr. Snake had found his way on down the road.

I have a fear of many other things too.

  I have a fear of all forms of transportation and those that are driving them.  Even fair rides.  Especially fair rides.  Cars. Planes.  Boats.  I just KNOW one of those is going to get me.

I fear that if I share my opinion in company of opposition, they will not like me or want to hurt me.  Rejection.

I fear saying no when I really want to.

I fear confrontation.  I want to flee.

I fear success.  What will people expect of me then?

I fear poverty.

I fear love sometimes.  I have to be vulnerable to love and be loved.  That is a hard one for me.

Among many other crazy things.

Do you have any fears?

My fear is manifested in ways that I would never guess  fear would be the root.  Anger.      Irritability.  Impatience.   Unkindness.  Unloving behavior all around.  Untrustworthiness.  (Even I know that is not a word.  Hang with me here.  )  Suspicion.  Paranoia.  Hate.      There  can be all kinds of nastiness coming from this soul.

 I have found that when I pray for my fear(s) to be removed, it is replaced with love.    Did  you know that we can’t receive love when we are fearful?  That fear has to be disarmed to receive love?  I find for myself,  I am really good at shutting the world out when I am afraid.  It is SOO powerful.  Seems so silly, doesn’t it?

Snakes are not a biggy. (eek. Well..)  Having them around doesn’t change the course of my life …too much.  Maybe the course of my walk  but not in the big picture of life. I knew what I was in for here with the snakes and I figured I better accept it or it just didn’t make sense to move here.  We are at the end of the earth where they have all bunched up in a corner.   JUST KIDDING!  But I do have to be aware of them.  Why, I am not quite sure.  They are doing us a service.

But the other fears ARE life changers.  Life stoppers.  Life inhibitors.  Life suckers.  Of my life and those around me.  That worries me.  I want to be a light in the eyes of others, not a downer.

God does remove fears of mine.  I have so many less fears in my heart than I use to.   I have so much more love in my heart than I used to.  So it only stands to reason that one is replaced with the other.   I have a long way to go but it is a start.  Thank goodness I still have time.  Maybe.  Hopefully.

Mr. Shady (Character)  found a 5 or 6 foot long snake down by my garden.  Oh my.  So I have decided that if I see him (which Pops has already too,  so I know he hasn’t moved on) I am going to invite him to live in my garden and take care of those nasty rodents.    Fear replaced by love.  So it can even be effective in trivial matters that aren’t life suckers!

Also, removing fear from my life allows me time to look up at the awesomeness of life.

God love y’all.

Karen

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